How do you unwind after a demanding day?
A long time ago, for a very long time, I was submerged in depression. Every day the burden of this reality wiped me out.
I didn’t exercise. I didn’t eat well. I didn’t moderate alcohol. I binge-watched television.
Sometimes the things that you think are doing to unwind don’t actually do that at all.
Unwinding is a way to decompress from the intensity of a stressful day. As it stood, the more demanding the day the greater the numbing required until sleep and repeat.
I was working too many hours for too little money; 40+ hours a week, every week. 12+ hour shifts regularly. My ambition and spirit was unafraid to take on responsibility to leave a legacy in the important role I had and despite promises made I was unfairly paid. I achieved my legacy. I was bullied by my boss.
Every day. Sleep and repeat.
It’s hard to think about this now. To be without an advocate, knowing something was wrong but oblivious to the misery and distress that was to come.
Fast forward to now. I have demanding days but not stressful days. In a way I’m grateful when I’ve had a demanding day. I feel invigorated afterwards, like after an intense workout. Since I’m either working from home or out in the field, I relish the null time during the drive to the gym after work to decompress, which I know how to do now. I reflect on the wins of the day, the challenges that were overcome, the difficulties that require more thought and then file them in order of energisers to repeat, skills to keep, and things to deal with tomorrow.
By the time I arrive at the gym I am ready for part 2 of my day: getting the work done.
Many people just want to get their exercise out of the way in the morning, like some kind of shore. I am the opposite, I look forward to it at the end of the day. The memory of the past is never far from my mind of My Alternative Life. My actual life, before I changed course.
No matter how hard my session is in the gym, my time there in the evenings is nothing short of a blessing and I am so grateful just to be there.
During COVID I don’t have the gym; I have to be disciplined as the cold and the wet discourage me from training all exposed on the driveway with my limited equipment. It is hard and I don’t want to be out there in the dark.
Reflecting on this today reminds me of why I train. It is a symbol of the energy I have for my life now. I unwind by being energetic. This energy honours a new truth: I have the power and drive now never to abdicate my right to authority over my own life.
What’s your favourite way to decompress? Tell me in the comments.